Seriously, sometimes it is much better if I'm talking to myself. I just wanna talk. The talk. We talk. He talks. She talks. Everyone talks. okay now, I'm feeling like I'm teaching the English. What do I really wanna talk right now?
I'm hungry. Really hungry. But I have to endure it until the middle of the month. Why? cause that is the most perfect moment to ask for money from my parents. I'm always wrong in making decision about money. I've always think that it is okay to use it all first and enjoy while you have that money in your hand. andd poof ! They are all gone now.
I think we should really ban the word supporters. No human are supportive to each other I'm telling you. We're fake. Even I am a fake. Don't try to deny this, cause you know deep down inside you, there's a maybe 10% less or more the unwilling to help or support feeling. I dare to admit that I am one of them. You are willing actually, but there's a little voice deeepp down inside tells you that you feel a little bit erremmehh? can't find the term. Forgive me.
I really missed my family now. My dad called me this evening, asking either I'm okay or not. To tell you the truth, I'm really excited when he called me. I feel like I wanted to tell him everything, all the stories, all of what really happen to me right now, all my feelings. But I know that I can never do that. It's not as easy like we said it literally. I just wanted somebody to listen to my story, not to comment or criticize me at that very moment I tell them. Just listen. I'm damn sad, tense. But that's make me feels like wanting to go out more often. I played every evening now. Thank God I can try to improve my skills. maybe there's a bright and dark side of having problems in you. maybe you just gotta choose and do what's best for you in order to endure the angst.